the monk who sold his ferrari

YAY the promos are over.. havent blogged nor come online in ages. I guess its probably due to several reasons. One i am afraid of my friends and two is was really sick but i'm okay now. promos sucked real bad i wouldnt be suprise if i get retained normally i would bother to make and effort to study but for this examinations none came. i completely didnt do section B of physics and likewise for my math and chem i dont guarantee my answers are correct for the questions i did do. Anyway screw the exams.. EXAMS SUCK. The school in dubai rejected me.. Screwy huh. Well i'm gonna email the registar with my cv and see how it goes and if i cant get the college of my choice there is stilll oxford intl and cambridge intl but really i wanna get out of my school. my spirit is crushed and i've hit lowest i've been in years. Played tennis the other day had a match point but lost the match something some my 'friends' said has really been bugging me. probably one of the reasons to my downcast mood. well i'll not to be so moody as they say we should bear our own burdens.

the monk who sold his ferrari is really something to think about makes one wonder eh... would a monk even own a ferrari or can a monk own a ferrari. its kind of a paradox it gets u thinking but ultimately u get to the question is a ferrari worth it. Doesnt make sense??? think about it. u'll get to that question eventually and only u noe the answer to that question.

the hols

the hols have ended. here is what i did.

monday-umm nothing. ahh yes soccer
tuesday- soccer again
wednesday-pw meeting( did i mention i hate pw)
thursday-umm cant rmbr.. oh yeah i did math.. see i actually studied haha. but only 4 chpters
friday- open house prep played bridge and soccer to kill 4hrs then met adarsh to watch ratatatatata ( okay i cant spell the name) told adarsh whats on my mind. His response: you should have gone acsi
Saturday: open house but it was really disappointing cause not many ppl came. Played hockey for like 4 hrs then managed to convince shermaine to go dover market to eat. Her whinning is damn funny. honestly. then she made me buy peach bubble tea for mrc girl and then i had to sneak it into the hall to give it to her. she wasnt there though and eventually found her with shermaine. then we walked around the school looking for dont noe what and then i went back to playing hockey for another 2 hrs.

went home and wrote out my feelings and it wasnt me. it was like someone else was inside of me. Made me think that maybe my nonsence is a facade for what i really feel but then ( okay this will sound really made up and unbelieveable but then again neither am i a supernatural believer kinda thing) my bible fell outta my bag and the verse psalms 23:3 caught my eye and it gave me strength. it was like god was giving me a message and suddenly that feeling of defeatness and deflatedness was gone.

Things in dubai arent going as well as my parents would have hoped. my dad doesnt really enjoy his new working environment and i cant say that i didnt predict that. but my dad is bounded by contract and so my mum will still have to go. havent been feeling so well these days having constant headaches and feel constantly tired. went to see a doctor he told me to go see a specialist. the told me what he thinks the problem is but this is something i rather keep inside. Telling ppl would not be good. I just hope it'll cure fast or i hope i dont have to be operated on. The doctor doesnt think it will lead to an operation cause its gotta do with my rhinithis and my mum has had the problem before but i hope it turns out alrite. God gimme strength.

A tribute

As my dad leaves for dubai tmr. it suddenly becomes so real. the boxes and the suitcases packed, the cars sold and movers coming over. It hit me hard that its like almost the last time i'll ever spend with my dad. the next time i'll see him will be during holidays but for the next 4 yrs we'll be in different countries and after the 4 yrs i'll be too old to have a father son relationship with my dad anymore and instead it'll be more like a relationship btwn 2 adults. Although i have never been close to my dad considering the last time we talked was when i was in primary 6. Despite this i still feel the need to pay a tribute to my dad. so here it goes.

Dad although we never really talked or did things together. You were still there for me. When mum shouted and threw remotes at me for my academic short comings, u would tell her to stop and i knew although u never said it u were silently disappointed. When u saw the results of the Mensa test and the certificate qualifying me for Mensa once again although u never said it,your eyes showed your pride in having me join u as another member of the family in Mensa. You were always concerned about who i was debating and how was doing in the tennis competitions i entered. It was always u who came and watched me at the tennis competitions and even when i got thrashed in the quarter-finals u were proud that i made it that far. When your friends and colleagues tipped me to become the next u or even surpass u. Silently i'm sure u were proud. But the truth is dad, i'll never be you. i've always lived in the shadow of your achievements and what you accomplished and it will always be that way. No matter what, i will never be able to measure up to what you are. I will always remain in your shadow but thanks dad for moulding me so that one day i will carry on the reputation you have established. i wish you all the best in Dubai and most importantly although i think the last time i said it was 7yrs ago. i love you dad.

rarh!!!

bleh.. my leg is seriously thrashed. went to play soccer today. we split the teams into polys vs jcs. i scored a beauty and i mean a beauty but i got slide tackled so hard that my knee popped. As usual the jackass that i am continued playing. Only after the match did i realise how badly hurt i was. We won 4-3 in the end,my cuz scoring a brace for the polys team. To be honest we were actually quite lucky. Then after the game. we went to alis house. It was quite fun, we just sat around talking bout crap and i realised how much my parents dominate my damn life. its always naveen do this, naveen why are u late, naveen where are you, naveen who u with, naveen dont do this, naveen switch off your computer, naveen y u listening to music. naveen i'm damn pissed with your attitude, naveen if u dont like it here get out of my house. Oh Damn how much i hate my parents they are seriously control freaks. They seriously dont let me do shit. I guess this is probably due to all the damn woman's magazines my mum reads since she stopped working. i mean all those articles on those screwed up american kids and how computers promote crime and all that nonsence.Talk about vulnerable!!. C'mon for an author you should have some intelligence. Oh right wait i inherited the intelligence from my dad, my poor mum only has a basic IQ. Sigh okay i think i've gotten it all out.

this week was okay as weeks go.

Monday- training
Tuesday- met shermaine and emma to 'study' chem
wednesday-training( forgot my brace for my right knee and a result my left knee had to take the full load and i picked a strain)
thursday-skipped school( went out with my parents-fullfilling social obligations for my father)
Friday(today)- having shortness of breath and my knee felt extremely stiff.- did some physio to get it better. shows how dumb i was to go play football right.

i hope the weekend'll be good. i know i'm going to the ritz tmr again for another dinner with my dads well-wishers. i cant stand these dinners. Dressing up in some zara shirt with dress shoes and dress pants talking abt politics isnt the way i want to spend my damned saturday nights. But hey if these clowns can get me a job in the future it gives me an edge right. Just hope my dad doesnt come up during my conversations and basically shows the person i'm talking to how poorly i measure up to him. It sucks being in my dads shadow. Started fantasy league here is my team and shermaines team.

my team-Van der Sar, Richards, Taylor, Carragher, Malouda, Malbranque, Osman, Alonso, Drogba(Captain), Heskey, Martins

shermaines team(helping her manage)-Cech, Richards, Bikey, Scharner, Lampard, Gerrard, Essien, Arteta, Kanu, Benjani, Torres(Captain)

funny things, sad things, angry things

this week was honestly not bad. heard some funny stuff went through some bad stuff and did some fun stuff. I also realised this week that i need to translate what i noe into results. i'm sick and tired of making careless mistakes or misjudging what the questions want cause i noe my work. so its really pissy. but this week was also real fun. i guess my class is getting more and more united and it really makes me happy when i see my whole class doing things together although i still feel that i dont belong there. this week has also been strange because i'm becoming more and more intolerant of my friends . i'm starting to question where the loyalties of some of my "friends" lie. Then again maybe its just me. Anyways here are some of the funny things i've heard this week.


at hockey training: Which one goes on first ah, the socks, shoes or the shin pads
which team am i on again ah( the guy was wearing white and the opponents were wearing coloured)
In school: What class do i have now, my reply: umm i'm not in your class, guy: oh shit damn crap how and then he runs
After a test :I will pass if i dont fail
After a bridge game and after the partner has revealed himself and the game is won: Eh who is my partner ah, did we win
and my mum: dont feed this one that one

All the funny things that people say. today was not bad, went for pw meeting with kd cheryl and jie hui ( who isnt in my pw grp) and then instead of doing anything ended playing bridge throughout the whole thing but it was fun. also found out who has been bitching bout me and i learnt who the person who threatened to hit my leg at the weak spot to ensure i dont ever play again is . Well dude i noe who are and my warning to you dont mess arnd with me cause i'll hurt u real bad and i mean real bad. what a jackass. Really i feel like joining hockey was an F-ing disaster.

Also havent heard ppl calling me vishnu in such a long time. i rmbr the times when adarsh bryan and justin would scream it across the mrt or classes and the tennis courts it used to be damn funny. It was so strange when bryan( the singapore one) called me vishnu the other day. i need to do fun and enjoyable stuff. my life is being plagued by just training work training work. lets see what i did this week.

monday:training
Tuesday:BORING LIKE CRAP!!
Wednesday:ponned training to sleep
Thursday:watched chelsea win and manu draw ponned training also
Fri: wasnt feeling well.
Sat: okay today was preety fun

see what i mean my week sucks as in it really sucks. its so boring. i dont noe how long more i can keep up having such boring weeks. FUN FUN FUN- i need fun. i'm a hedonist i cant live without fun and pleasure.

here are 2 quotes that are really food for thought especially for me:

We hate some persons because we do not know them; and we will not know them because we hate them

I too shall lie in the dust when I am dead, but now let me win noble renown.

and too someone whom u shld noe who u r- I'm not a f-ing sub for when u have a problems or need a shoulder. Just piss off.

stuff

finally found time to blog. Everything seems to be falling apart for me. I have been neglecting my true piorties and have not been paying attention to whats happening around me. This week kd stepped down from treasurer. I feel like i lost an ally but more importantly a dear friend and just today i had a fight with cheryl. It was harsh and some explitives were exchanged and to be honest it was all my fault. I feel like i'm loosing all my friends one by one. even when i had lunch with adarsh and when we went to watch a movie we werent as close as we used to be. Had the national day thing on wed. Represented tct as house captain. For the stupid pushball game i had to throw my body into the thing and had to push really hard against 3 acsi rugby players. it made my injury worse but at least we won third overall. what was nice was that some girl who looked not bad said she saw me playing and said i was very brave-a small consolation i guess. Hockey is also eating my brains. I have to call addidas and collect money for the jerseys and on top of that i have to collect money for class-t also. then there is planning for trainings and studying. there is so much to do and so little time. i'm falling apart almost literally. i was considering stepping down from tct captain but now i think i'll actually do it. so many things on my mind, anyways here are the photos from pre- u sem and photos of a place that gives me comfort- barker. how i miss the good old days. the days when i was a kid.

they were having rehersal couldnt resist taking a photo of my prefect junior standing like a joke

my perfect wonder

The week has finally ended. The week was horrible and good in someways. there was good and bad. the bad was really bad and the good was okay. hear are my hi-lights

Monday-trying to recover from the fight my mum and i had- stuffed myself after training
Tuesday- met shermaine and emma after school and studied chem- nearly got 9 demerit points but clifton saved me but my parents found out though.
Wednesday-Poor shermy waited for me to end my never ending training so i left before it finished, felt real bad that she went to get water and stuff for me after she had to wait for quite a while then taught sherm chem she gave me a small cute mgs water bottle. Went home and got scolded by my mum again- she said i'm going dubai with my dad.
Thurs- Extremely upset- went to talk to clifton. Sherms friend gave me a weird look still cant forget.
fri- went to museum. saw this really cool picture. it was 3 photos of 3 generations of the same family's children at that era sitting at the same spot in the house in the 1930s, 1970s and 2004. it was so amazing that all the kids look so incredibly like their parents when they were the same age. got kicked out of ndp too.
Today- met lex at vjc - wore the acjc collegiate shirt and got a few weird stares. came home and had a another fight with my mum but she gave me a second chance i got till promos to prove myself.

i've been given several chances over the course of my life, most of which i've thrown away. i'm always making it through by the skin of my teeth but i think this is probably the last chance i'd probably ever receive. I just pray to god that my mum remains true to her word and if she is true i thank god for this one more chance and this time i promise although my promises may mean nothing by now that i'll go for it. I'll give it my all cause i want my dreams to come true and it sure as hell doesnt involve going to some dumbass pricky private school in dubai. for all the ppl who have been there for me the past week, giving me encouragement and pushing me on. i thank you guys so much. For now all i can do is trudge on. My pefect wonder.. sigh.. my perfect wonder i never needed you or wanted you so bad.

today

today sucked real bad- i just cant wait till i'm 21 and am out of the house. i cant stand my parents for nuts.i just hate being their son. cant stand it anymore. i think i need to think of happier things. finished reading harry potter. it was okay but i think some of my friends are getting potter feaver. here is a convo i had on msn.
you probably dont want to know the earlier part of the convo. ppl could get offended so here is a part that shouldnt offend anyone. well have no time to cont. blogging cause the biatch will pull the internet plug.

finally finished the book says:
we are purebloods
finally finished the book says:
12 years
says:
yes exactly
finally finished the book says:
AHHH
finally finished the book says:
time for me to become minister for magic
says:
yeah tt be nice
finally finished the book says:
lol
finally finished the book says:
you can be umbridge
finally finished the book says:
HAHAAH
says:
i'll be incharge of filtering out the undesirables
finally finished the book says:
yeah
says:
tts good

the past week..blah blah blah

finally found time to blog after so long. i'm so tired cause of school, i'm really fatigued. during religious harmony week i realised something really strange. Singaporeans tend to confuse Tamil with Hindi and banghra music. this is really pissy cause when my school played some tamil music some jackasses in my class were like naveen your language. well firstly i dont noe anyone ever in my family who can speak tamil let alone understand it. The only non english music i listen too is spanish(mum) hindhi but more punjabi music and chinese music so yeah tamil isnt included. however one thing Singaporeans should get into their head is that tamil is like a dialect it is not the national language of india. its like Cantonese is the dialect used in canton province and Mandarin in the national language its just the same with hindhi and tamil so dudes next time u see an indian dont be quick to assume that he understands tamil or in my case dont be quick to assume that i understand any language at all accept English so yeah. this week i guess was okay here are the hi-lights,
monday- training
tues- cant rmbr what happened
weds-training then met shermaine
thurs- was a screwed up day
fri- okay- went for barker invest- miss the good old days- shermaine- treasurer and kd- prez of mrc

tmr- have to go for ndp rehearsal- i cant even skip even when my leg is injured so its looks like i have to buy a brace before going to take pressure of my knee- stupid china guy who cant play hockey for nuts. next time when someone gets past u dont swing your bloody stick like a joke- that'll do u wonders honest. before i go i got one thing that has bugging me- Can Singapore's society handle mavericks bohemians and social activists. when i come up with a fairly good reason that it can i'll post it.

long pants

Got back all my exam papers. did really terrible and i mean really bad.. only passed 3 got one S and the rest are ungraded. screwed huh. anyways yeah i'll just forget that and focus on my promos. I was reading the forum in the sunday times on sunday and this woman mdm agnes hun yin chai wrote into to suggest that secondary school boys should wear shorts instead of long pants in sec 3 and sec 4 just like the students in catholic high. Well mdm angnes yeah i agree it does get warm when we wear our long pants but wearing the longs pants is a symbol of us maturing and the added the weight of the pants is like somewhat like our added responsibility-thats y boys wear shorts and men wear dress pants. i'm also sure that if u ask the lads at cat high or river valley or any school that forces their students to wear shorts at sec 3 and sec 4. i'm sure u'll find that an overwhelming majority would rather wear pants. Unless of course u would rather us looking like boys an behaving like them instead of acting our age. what a stupid comment by a probably stupid woman. sigh. anyways god gimme strength for the rest of the week.

07-07-07

07-07-07. what a nice day right. So today i decided that i would do something fun and benefitial to myself. First i went to zara to buy the shirts i wanted to buy. I found that rather stupid cause my godma's from spain it obviously be cheaper there. Aye but nevermind. Then i went to video ez and rented Fog and guess what it was showing on HBO when i got home. I was like wth. I still feel slightly like crap. the bloody ps3 my dad bought for me is still lying there unopened. i told my mum to sell it cause it'll only cause problems with me and my mum. I feeling like pushing for a vote of no confidence of my leadership cause i feel incapicitated in my abilities to perform my duties. I just feel like stepping down. My mum is really becoming f**king pissy. Before that biatch pulls the internet plug i'd better go. so much for feeling better argh..

WHEE

WHEEEEE- i think i'm begining to recover from my injuries. i havent felt so fit in such along time. I can now run without feeling pain in my legs. but my right shin still hurts when there is impact on it. Now i need to get back to match fitness- bring on the endurance and stamina trainings and soon i'll be as fast as i used to be. Sigh life is so boring there doesnt seem to be anything to do. for tennis u need a partner and everyone i noe who plays tennis is busy. soccer-well after 3 terrible sessions involving scoring an own goal, injuring someone and shooting the ball at chris's girlfriend, i'll forget soccer for the moment. My ps2 is spoilt and i have no cash to fix it and i'm sick and tired of the theatre. DAMN! argh. I realised that i've begun not to trust people. now when people say maybe or dont noe or sometimes for some people even yes i take it as a no. i dont y i suddenly subconciously do that. well it could be only be for the better. Bloody physics prac tmr on a holiday. hate the physics department. Wheeeee

exams are over

Exams are finally over. i think i'm screwed. Every paper seemed hard and it looks like i'm on track to a perfect fail rate which would not be good. Things dont seem to be going right. My parents are being rather f**ked and i seem to be extremely tired. I think it would because of the constant outings during the hols. At this point in time i feel like killing a hell lot ppl. Either ways i'm too tired to cont. LEX i'm sorry it wasnt my fault i swear.

photos

today sucked. i'm so upset and demoralised. no mood to really blig. but here are the photos from the class bbq.

Question?

money money money-i need money. Sigh i've burned 335.90 so far this holidays. Where does the money go, that i have no idea really but i think overall i'm sorta having fun. I noe i went to watch the CO perform sometime back but i forgot when- wait i'll ask sherm- okay it was on saturday. it was really good accept i felt they didnt do justice to colours of the wind and for an encore they played the profittable plots song and now i cant get it out of my head. argh. Today i went to meet kd at national library to do pw. Half our books are in the restricted section. i guess we have to go back again another day early in the morning to properly go through them. after that we met jie hui, shuan and bryan to watch oceans 13 which was a really good movie as in it was really good. some really stupid things happened while walking to ps. Jie hui suddenly stopped in the middle of a crossing and went "Question is that a car- should we cross?"I was like NO SHIT do u want to get knocked down and secondly no one goes question before asking a question but then again i'm guilty of doing stupid things many times aswell. I know i did alot of other stuff so far during this hols like i rmbr a sakae sushi thing and i noe we went to cheryls house a couple of times and watched some scary movie and went for some bbq and loitered around clementi after hockey and i noe i did a hell lot of other stuff but really cant rmbr.
Shermaine says i'm more emotional then her in the sense i'll cry more easier then her at a sad movie but i feel she is more likely to that then i would.Okay so i think puppies and kittens are cute but that doesnt make me more likely to cry at a movie right. well anyways 3 sentosa outings to look forward too- i think i'll only go for one and forget the other 2- i so need to study. sigh.. tra la la.. yay finally bought my glove.

today-fun- blur- tired

today was fun.. i did 2 chapters of chem. kd shermy jie hui shuan and bryan came to my house also.. it was fun. pardon my limited vocab. right now my brain isnt functioning at even one tenth its normal operating capacity. sigh i cant rmbr what we did at my house. oh yeah now i rmbr. we like walked all around the city. went to swensens, then came to my house. Then we played bridge( yes i know how to play now) and studied(it was successful) and then watched spongebob squarepants and played more bridge. now i need to sleep cause tmr must go play hockey at dawn. yeah okay.

song of the phoenix

sigh i was feeling miserable yesterday cause of the flu and the thought of living all alone in singapore as my parents move to the UAE. Well i was quite disheartening to hear that my cuz would be left with me after all he is a liability. Then there was this stupid but foolish fear that some how i wouldnt make the starting 11 next year. I've like always been good in whatever i've done be it debates or whatever. Even in club tennis we went far in doubles. Its like i dont noe if suddenly i cant be the best anymore. Well i've forgotten it and put it out of my mind. My cuz screwed up bad and i'm guessing thats the end of his stint with me. Today i feel like the song of the Phoenix is playing within me. the song of the Phoenix is that beautiful tone that plays when all hope seems lost.. the tune that gives strength for one more battle. Its like its pushing me on. Giving me assurance that nothing will go wrong. Something has reached into the depths of me to help me to keep on going. I feel unusually happy today or it could just be the brandy mixed with the honey for my cough but i'll go with the song of the Phoenix.

acjc it is

The journey is complete. I will remain at acjc. My dad suprisingly isnt pissed at me considering i changed my mind at ACS(I). He, (i think), believes i made the right decision. Either way i'm really happy. Although i think that i would have never stayed if not for certain people. i really need to thank cheryl, jie hui. shaun,kang de, shermaine, adarsh,marc(for swearing at me) for helping choose the right school. too tired to blog abt anything else.

my heart,my hopes,my aims are ACJC

acs(i) or acjc

On Saturday night my dad opened his mail. In there he found my acceptance letter to ACS(I). I was stunned, happy and some what upset. I really didnt think that i would make it to ACS(I). This considering that i thought i screwed up my interview. I really dont know what i should do. I applied to ACS(I) half-heartedly thinking that i wouldnt get in. But in some sick twisted way i got accepted. Both my heart and my brain tell me to go ACS(I) and at the same time both my heart and my brain tell me to stay at ACJC. When i weigh my options to go to acs(i), my heart says thats where my friends are and i'll have a lot of fun but my brain says i already started on PW and i have alot to catch up on if i go IB and when i weigh my options for staying at acjc my heart says ACJC is the place i love and my brain says it will be easier for me with the IB curriculum. I really cant make up my mine. Most of my secondary school friends want me to stay in acjc but none of them convincingly so but some say acs(i) is actually better and since i have the opportunity its best to just take it. I think i'll list my pathetic reasons for staying and leaving and see which is better.

Staying
-My close friends
-My commitments
-My dream of finishing an ac education the conventional way
Leaving
- My Class
-More Friends in IB
- No more RV( not that i have anything against them)
- The facilities in IB

The fact that my class isnt bonding at all and that it is becoming increasingly distant is haunting me. I didnt noe how much ones class affects your performance until i got this pathetic class. Class outings never seem to happen. The fact that i had to cancel another class outing while blogging strengthens my case for going to IB even more. My parents are fine with which ever school i go to. My dad clearly prefers acjc cause thats where i'll be taking physics but he says the choice is completely mine. I called IB up, i went for the tests and i went for the interview all without my parents help and for them this is a journey i have to complete myself. I pray that in the next few days GOD sends me something that would clearly influence my decision to go to one of the two schools and hopefully maybe it's my class lighting up. Cause it is really at a point where nothing more can be done. Even the 6 of us who try and hold it up have broken apart. I think maybe its time to let go. Maybe its time to say goodbye to dreams and say goodbye to acjc and hello to a new begining.

pre-u sem

Finally back from pre-u sem. i'm so happy to be back home. back home to a room that doesnt smell like someone has died in it. Pre-u sem was really boring. I didnt feel like i bonded with my seminar group at all. I didnt take part in any cheers with my seminar group. i only bonded with few individuals not the group as a whole. Well i'm just glad to be home. Perhaps maybe i'll miss the late night truth or dare sessions, the card games or maybe i'll just miss the people who participated in these activities. I think the thing that i'll miss most is the late ACS cheering sessions with ACS(I). I really connected with my acs(i) counterparts, maybe considering that many of them were my primary school friends. I spent more tme with them then with acjc or my group. The most fun i had was probably when kenneth from ACIB and I went to take photos with every other school. We interfered in the group photos off almost every school including our 'friends' from raffles. It was suprising that they didnt mind us in their group photo. Imagine their year-end magazine with 2 acsians in their group photo and that goes for every school we took photos with. We took millions of random photos including kid-napping a girl from raffles to take a photo with. When i get the photos we took i'll post them up. Formula 1 qualifying just finished a mclaren one-two on the starting grid. it was very satisfying to watch kimi crash out. Really happy to be home.

A conversation i had a pre-u sem:
Raffles girl: The best is yet to be huh
Me: yeah
Raffles girl: The best are here. The best of the english speaking elites. Who needs Hwa Chong
Me: You could say that
Raffles girl: Well even the eilites have eilites among them
me: true
Raffles girl: Well then the best isnt to be. The best is here. The best is Raffles.
Me. Well in that case you can keep on hoping because that age will never come.

note: The best is yet to be (ACS motto)
Auspicium Melioris Aevi( hope for a better age)( Raffles motto)

pink

blur blur blur. thats what i am.. i'm becoming increasingly slow. BUT its okay!!.. i went to watch chelsea vs manu yesterday in a pub where everyone execpt 8 ppl were dressed in red.. so u can imagaine i was like the only one screaming when chelsea scored. the manager of the club told me to quiten down.. i was like sure.. the damn bill at the pub was like 326.90.. i was like wtf.. we just had a few drinks and some nachos but its okay because CHELSEA WON. today sucked. i went to the gym and saw pink.. she was amazingly hot. i mean she was amazing. i forgot her name so i'll just call her pink.. she was awesome.. it was impossible to gym with her around. nice hot pink. sigh. tmr got pre-u sem. let one week or boredoom begin. the only up side is that i miss school. so yeah.. i'm slightly happy. just slightly. tra la la la .. chelsea won.. tra la la.. did i mention chelsea won..

-

went out today. what a way to end the term it was fun. Soon pre-u sem will start and my life will go all messy. I guess i'm starting to drift away from my class again. i realise maybe i dont belong in Acjc. It isnt the place my seniors made it out to be. I miss my friends. i miss fun. I constantly feel like i dont belong. the constant question of what am i doing here. Cant wait for the hols cant wait to rest my knees and my legs. Hockey training and organising them with nick will be troublesome. Its only a year and a half more till i graduate. I begin the countdown. Next year we'll try and win nationals. with mental training i think our team will be able to do it. I am so fatigued. i need a break. maybe if my parents go to europe i'll have a party at my house. haha.. that'll be fun. i hope i fullill my parents hopes and expectations in the future. Dont want to let them down.I will start soon. Give me 2 weeks recovery and i'll prove all the clowns that ac boys can mount a challenge to the rv muggers.

today

today was fun!!!... i have a new name - Dino. i dont noe how it came about but apparently when i compete my eyes are bloodshot and then i dunno who said i am like some lean mean machine ( honestly i doubt that) and then adarsh was like yeah la like dino and then the name stuck. Physics was awesome- i had to stand up cause i didnt my homework and then again when do i ever do homework right. but i think she is softening towards me. She didnt send me dc for once. yay!! then i went to sleep in the void deck during break ( no i didnt pon lesson. ppl shld stop asking me that we u guys see me- i dont pon everything). Had an awesome dream it was wicked sick but then shaun woke me up-argh. Went for some pre-u sem thing. it was so suck up to the government and their policies but honestly the masses and the status quo are set against one or 2 of the policies especially regarding foreign talent. Then again the lack of an opposition does not give us much of an option to do anything and then again the PAP is still and will still be the most effective party. Today was good its just that i'm involved in three different scandals so that makes school all the more "fun". Argh i cant fit into my cream pants i need to go do something abt it. one more day.. tra la la

hi-lights

sorry wasnt able to blog for a week was really tired and bogged down. here are the hi-lights of the week.
monday- cant remember what happened
tuesday- still cant remember what happened
wednesday- went to watch bishan jc vs acjc in rugby- we lost 7-3. i was the only one swearing at the rafflesians.
thursday- cant remember what happened( really seem to be suffering memory loss)
friday- had physics test- i did only the mcq- played soccer -then went to for rock ac- i realised that i'm a horrible singer when i was singing along so no more singing from me
saturday-woke up at 5.30 to go to NTU for stupid pre-u sem-i completely dominated proceedings
sunday- cant rmbr and it was like yesterday
today- umm did math test( no comments) and then went home but took the wrong bus and overslept and woke up in hougang so ended up cabbing back home.

i will be happier

today i did chem spa and chem test and screwed both up. chelsea lost. My bad luck continues. I have the damn flu in full force. i want to go to school tmr but suddenly i have fever now. this really sucks. I am going to support milan for the rest of the UCL but considering my luck i ought to support Manu. It seems really hard to get ppl to watch a movie. I'm really sorry dudes i cant go on sat cause i got class outing. the class outing better be good cause i'm giving up watching spiderman for it and that leaves me with the predicament of not being able to find anyone to go with cause everyones busy. I had to turn down 2 grps of ppl for sat nite. sigh. the outing better be smthing good. Sorry lex and sorry abraham. I really feel bad turning u guys down but a worse choice would be choosing btwn u guys. anyways maybe the match of AC against Saints. I will be HAPPIER. thats what i'm going to be a HAPPIER person.. tra la la.

sick

Okay.. i so need to sleep right now. I got a splitting headache and a terrible cough.. Bad enough being injured now i'm sick. I'm so screwed i havent finished my chem graded assignment. Any sensible mind would have done it during the free time during the weekend. But dear naveen was busy playing daddy's son. Meeting doctors MBBS and PHDs alike. I hope all these meetings will help me in the future cause i dont want to be in a situation where someone introduces himself as Dr. blah blah and i'll go so whats the big deal. All these meetings should help when i grow up. Maybe as clients. Heck anyone could use some well-off clients but first i need to finish my damn work to get the grades to get the job so i can get these people as my clients. A double edged sword i guess. I'll have to do it during free time tmr. sigh. okay getting dizzy need to sleep.

sleep

Planned on blogging last nite but eventually fell asleep. Had to go for some effective communication workshop for class reps today in school but overslept and woke up at 12. It was a good sleep. I sprained my wrist yesterday. It adds to my long list of injuries. I didnt make it into the team for the inter-faculty current affairs competition. The 4 ppl who did make the team for science conincidentally all went for the thursday selection test which was apparently easier. Eileen made it into the team for arts but then again i cant complain. I guess i'm just not good enough. yeah its finally the weekend. I doubt i can finish my mountainous pile of homework cause i have to meet kd and cheryl to finish GPP and then watch phantom of the opera later on tonight. well i'll try and finish it all tmr. There is always an all-nighter after all tues is a holiday. I think i'm a softie. I'll blog abt that later when i have more time.

...

Yesterday i ran in the 1.5km race. I came in last.. But that was the least of my concerns. I wasnt supposed to be running in the first place but i still ran. I finished 1 min off my PB and i completely destroyed my leg. I had a bone scan this morning my anterior cruciate ligament received significant damage from taking stress off my shin. My right shin also took damage from taking stress of my left shin. So that makes both my legs useless. My no running ban still stands at 6 weeks. The only piece of good news i had was that i can resume light physical training next week. i spent the whole day sleeping today. Chelsea won last night. I was really upset that they didnt kill they game. The really dominated but they should have gone for monster kill and ended it once and for all. Back to school tmr. Sigh. just a day off the weekend yea.. tra la la.

Our greatest glory consist not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.
-Oliver Goldsmith

today

Today was okay. I was mega high in school and now i'm like duhhhhhhh!!!!!!!... i feel like shit right now. I havent a clue why. Today i decided to compare various schools and see which of the schools has the best looking girls and i came to the conclusion that CJC has the best looking girls followed by SAINTS then VJC but ACJC has the nicest girls and VJC has the bitchest girls. NOTE: this wasnt an accurate study. So much for studies huh. I also got 7 marks minused off my math test due to UTTER carelessness. I so need to fix this problem. I'm throwing away grades from As to Ds. For GP i had 2 marks deducted for late work but i still topped the class. i guess that is the only subject i can content being top in. But to be honest my grade for that subject in SA1 SC1 and classes with english speaking people is just average or above average.

From Econs onwards my mood took a downward spiral. I became from extremely high to extremely low. I went for the Inter-faculty current affairs thing. The only ppl i knew from Science there was john and nick. The whole of SB stream had only 9 participants and the whole of sciences had only 20 participants compared to 41 for the arts and there are like only 15 arts classes to 30 science classes. Thats what i consider imbalanced but i should advance to the next round. I need to have fun. Go out enjoy the breeze and be with the people i enjoy being with. I hope i can do that on labour day. unless everyone has to bloody study. i need to start putting in effort. all my friends are owning me in tests. God give me strength to study.

Borrowed this from Shermaine's Blog. This so describes what i feel like right now- sigh-

I'm tired of trying, making an effort, not getting a response, I give up, I'm utterly exhausted.

I need my friends i'm fading into the shadows walking like a stranger.

hi-lights of the past week

So sorry for not blogging in a long time.. i've been extremely busy.. anyways here are the hi-lights of the past week.

Monday-Ran 3000m steeple chase... i ran injured causing myself to worsen my injury but i came in third with a time of 12.30 one minute and 30 seconds off my normal time.. put too much pressure on my leg causing injury to worsen.

tuesday- dunno cant remember- all i can remember is my leg killing me

Wednesday- Inter school cross country- guys 5th girls 2nd.. couldnt walk by now

thrusday- went doctor- fractured shin due to inflammed muscle pushing againist bone

Firday- Went SGH for physio- cant run for 6 weeks
then went to pay andrea money and then went out with adarsh and bryan... ate at Crystal jade then went ps to play arcade then went queensway to buy shoes... after all that i went for kids-read.. it was mega fun.. Barker lost the finals...

Saturday-Had the cross thing- played touch rugby with eileen zoe natasha ryan ee cheong shawn lee and some acs(i) guys for 2 hours.. killed my legs even further. Then went for dinner at shangri-la.. same old food.. was smsing eileen throughout the entire dinner... hearing my mum convince me that physics is good through out the entire dinner was boring.

sunday-finally exchanged songs with eileen- had night terrors for 5 days in a row- chelsea drew- new week more hell-

Today- got selected for inter- faculty current affairs quiz- arts is so going to pawn.. i'm going to get embarrassed tmr.. tra la la la...

Insane

Today was sick.. First had PE right in the morning and we had to do 2.4 run. Did it in 9.51 min. Thats like about 50s off my average time. Then i had to rush Physics and then had math test and then had GP test. Both are passable. Then just as i was preparing to go for cross Eileen calls me and asks me if her event was on today. So i went to the board and to my horror i had an event also. So anyway i decided to run and by some mega tyco or maybe it was by gods will i came in third. It was also much to the expense of my shins. i could have challenged for the top 2 but the pain was insane. Anyway then came home and now going to sleep for another day of hell tmr. Sigh.

time

Finally found time to actually blog. School has been eating me up. This week till today has been quite stressfull. I have piles of homework building and the to-do list seems to be ever growing. I saw Shermaine for the first time this entire week. Well it seems to be the same with all my friends. I dont even see them anymore. I'm settling nicely in my new class. They are a really good bunch but sometimes they just tend to deviate to chinese which i've kinda gotten used too. Today my class got extremely high about some empty cans. I dont noe why cause they were speaking chinese and Sherm also wondered what they were getting high about but then again its like all in a days work. So yeah.

I dont know whether i should quit hockey and join cross forever. The people in cross seem so much nicer than the people in hockey. Sherm said i should stay in hockey but then eileen says join cross. Ryan says to join cross but then again Shaun wants me to stay in Hockey. So i'm in a bit of a dillema. Havent a clue what to do. I think i'm gonna weigh out the pros and cons of both ccas and then make my decision. I also got back my physics test. i got 5 out of 26. Brilliantly done huh. Well considering i didnt even noe there was a test on that day and also considering that i did better than some of my friends who actually did study for the test so i guess i cant complain. I did my chem test. It was okay. I should pass but i'm really pissed with myself cause i knew how to do the last question but didnt have time. Threw 5 marks away. Sigh.

I also learnt today that i'm prone to zoning out when i'm extremly tired. That can be potentially dangerous in the future or when playing a match or running. YEAH chelsea is the first ever english team to win at the mestalla.

My class rep badge(it looks like crap)

My physics test

tired

This is the latest i've ever been up on a school night. sigh. i'm getting increasingly stressed. I finished econs and now am doing chem. This is so unlike me. The old naveen would have probably gone to sleep. Well its not like studying at this hour is doing me any good aswell. I can barely keep my eyes open. So much for absorbing anything. My insane shopping spree in Malaysia has left me severely short on money and i cant keep my mind off other stuff aswell. I'm so screwed. Chelsea is playing later tonight. I wonder if i can keep awake to watch them play. They should win. Which ever way it goes i'm just happy manu lost and that there was a mclaren 1st and 2nd at sepang. It was probably the best race i watched in sepang after 4 yrs of going there to watch either ferrari or renault win. Either way i'll try and go back to chem. Chris and amanda i'm really sorry u guys have no doubles partner anymore. I cant take the insane training of tennis, cross country, hockey and DEP ( debate elective not the drama one) at the same time. So DEP has ended and i had to stop tennis to have time for at least hockey and cross country. i'm really sorry.. i just couldnt take it. Shes almost always on my mind.

dead

okay mega tired now. i have a splitting headache and i havent finished my econs. sigh. i have stuff to blog about but i am extremely dizzy at the moment. there is no way in hell i can keep awake or blog. i think i'll blog tmr... if i can that is.

sigh

sigh..
i embarrassed myself and my cca today.. aiyoh.. Went for cross-country after hockey training.. So i was like already damn tired but thats besides the point. I was running behind Ryan and i was going strong as in i wasnt tired.. I was just doing my stuff when my trailing leg catches something sticking out of the ground. I took a hard fall and strained my ankle and from then on i had to limp back eventually finishing last. I was PATHETIC. i felt like shit cause i was not only representing myself but hockey aswell. So yeah i feel like shit. Chelsea is playing later. Hopefully they can give me some solace.. however in the mean time i needa think of a way to tell the girl i like that i've fallen for her.. tiring stuff..

ummm... uh huh.. ahh.. umm.. DAMN>>!!

Well today was like the first official day of school with my new class. I cant say it was a disaster but it was rather boring. My class really tends to deviate to Chinese whenever possible and well they got a telling off from our GP teacher. There arent any of my friends in any of my lecture groups. Not shermaine not eileen not adarsh not johnathan and not even hari or raymond. The only person i regconised the whole day today besides people from my class was a girl whom i think is Shermaine's friend and then again i might have seen wrongly. Well i guess i just have to live with it. Well hanging around my class the whole day today i noticed some of the queer things they do.

1)The chinese scholars carry this electronic dictionary looking thing and the constantly use the dictionary function to get translations from chinese to english but what amazes me is that this thingy has a chinese keyboard(amazing huh).
2) Most of them brought their river valley year books ( guess what.. its in chinese)
3) They all have an overpowering urge to join MRC or Strategic games.
4) Some of them write notes or their to-do lists in chinese( i swear i saw some of my classmates' hand-phones progammed in chinese aswell)
5)They love physics and chinese but hate gp,chem and math
6)They wanted to have their class outing at room 5.11 so that they can play bridge.
7) They had no idea ACSIAN THEATRE was running west side story( their reason: they dont watch english shows???)
8) everyone in my class took higher chinese for the exception of myself and cheryl
9) The only thing they knew about football is that a person called david beckham exists. ( they think he still plays for MANU and they called chelsea.. (chleseh)..)
10) They really struggle speaking to me.

However they are all still a nice a bunch nonetheless but i still prefer my old class. Something else happened today aswell. This girl- Nicole guessed that i was from barker. I asked what drew her to her conclusion. She said i had the look- very tall and very skinny but altheletically built. I was like uh huh..Anyway Most people do guess my school correctly . They all guess that i am from ACS but when i ask them which ACS most tend to get it wrong saying that i'm from Independent but at least they get the ACS part correct. The hard part people have, is guessing which CCA i'm from. Here are some of the guesses i've heard.

1) Track and field ( i cant run fast-only long)
2) cross country ( i want to join)
3) Rugby ( WTF.. do i look like i can play rugby)
4) Tennis ( techinally correct but i dont play for school)
5) swimming
6) basket ball ( cant play that game for nuts)
7) soccer ( only like watching)
8) hockey ( i think only 2 guessed it right)
9) Debates ( only 4 people said this- one cause he has seen me receive award before- one seen me debate and they other 2 cause of the way i speak but unfortunatly i've seen the end of my debating days)

Interesting huh. I never knew i could fit into the portfolio of so many ccas but the most common guesses are always cross country and tennis. Which are sort of true. Argh i really miss my class.. i'm going to die of boredom sooner or later. i need to go out and really have fun as in with the people i really enjoy being with and not some messy outing. Argh. save me. I think i've fallen for her. DAMN>>

Indian expats- how included are they??

YAY.. my mum isn't pissed at me. she is pissed at my sis and my cuz. Well done to them. Today was one of the most random days i've ever had. I decided not to go for the class outing ( i'm not part of SA5 anymore didnt really want to feel like an outsider) but decided to go to lexi's house instead. She was like we havent met up in like 4 months so just come and study la.. I was like okay. When i reached her house. First thing she says to me

lexi: who do u think tastes better.. me or audrey
Me: umm.. i dont noe..
Audrey: I taste better
Lexi: u so do not. ( sticks her arm right in front of my face). I taste better.. just try.
Me: i rather not.
lexi: (grabs my arm and bites it). He tastes better than u.
me: wtf. ( wiping of her saliva)
Audrey: let me try
Me: nonono.. Or i'm leaving..
Audery: okay lets do work. Says softly: I taste the best

We actually did manage to do work after that. I managed to finish chem tutorial 4( now only lagging by 3 chapters). I was quite surprised that we actually didnt talk through out the whole thing. Amazing huh.

Anyways I read this article in The Sunday Times today. Indian expats: How separate are they?
Basically the article is about the rift between local indians and expat indians. The writer wrote that these indians cant integrate into Singapore because singaporean indians cant accept them due to the fact that they tend to live more wealthy. They dine at Rang Mahal live in districts 9,10 and 15. Shop at Mumbai se and what not. They say quote " i feel that the community doesn't actually like to interact or mingle with us in spite of my friendly gestures. There's a bit of warmth lacking"- Dr. Suchitr Kataria.

Now i personally found this hilarious. I'm a third generation Singaporean. My grandparents were born here, my parents were born here and i was born here. Its really very rare to find a third generation Singaporean cause most Singaporeans have grandparents who emigrated here.
But thats beside the point.I buy my clothes from BritishIndia. I dine at Rang Mahal or other restaurants like Vaanch or at Hai Tien Lo every fortnight. I live in district 15 and i know and i see many of these Indian expats. Yet most of my friends are chinese or indians who were born here. Now heres the interesting question- Why is that so?

I'll tell you why. Its not that we Singaporeans dont welcome u guys here. Its that u guys dont want to make yourselves welcomed here. I can tell you of the countless occasions when someone from india has told me i pronounce a word wrongly.They with their indain accents tell us we say stuff wrongly. No doubt our english may be peppered with singlish - but then again its all part of being singaporean. Then there are the times i hear an indian lady tell her friend that Singaporean Ladies dress indecently by wearing shorts out of the house and they'll heave a sigh of disgust. Now!- Its abt 30 Celsius out there and to be honest i think wearing shorts is far more sensible than wearing a sari with track shoes while walking around. Moreover Some Indian expats ought to learn that they cant always have things their own way .They piss off taxi drivers and even the cashiers at the supermarkets. I mean these people are human too. A smile and a friendly chat will do a world of good. Being stuck in your egoistic self-centered world where the caste system still prevails aint going to help anyone.

Now i'm not saying all Indian expats are that way. There exists a small minority of Indian expats who are almost Singaporean that u wouldnt know it until u see their passports. These Indian expats are hard to come by. They are however and rather unfortunately the minority. The first Indians that came to Singapore came as coolies and merchants. These Indians made an effort to integrate into Singapore- they fought for Singapore and they made a home in Singapore along side their Chinese and Malay neighbours. The new expats of today are no different . They are intellectual coolies here to work for the great multi-nationals that set base in Singapore. For those who make an effort to fit in.-We welcome you to our country but for those who think they are tooo good for Singapore. Honestly Please leave .. i mean it. Please do leave. Cause the next time i hear an Indian expat complaining that they could get something or that something is better in India or anywhere else, i'll be happy to direct you right to the airport and right onto the next air-india flight out of our inferior country where you can be intellectual coolies that you guys really are some where else. Now after reading this. Stop whining u guys. Cause if u wanna go caste system on me. I'm a Brahman so i beat u guys there as well. Cheers from a Singaporean.

Tra la la la

Tra la la la. Super bored and super stoned.. Tra la la.. I want to do something but my mum is running a prison camp.. I got her pissed at me today. Well... she kinda likes to screw up everyones weekend. This weekend sucks..no football.. no formula1.. nothing.. They should have a rule against weekends like this. Anyhows i was supposed to meet Eileen at one but i woke up at 12. I was really happy when she said she was tired and decided she wanted to take a nap. So i went to time my run myself and after abt one km i had a cramp. I was really pissed cause i should have warmed up properly. I went home and my mum was like blah blah blah again.. I tend not to listen. The whole day from then on sucked really bad. I mean it was really boring. I watched cartoons and more cartoons and more cartoons till i had a headache. So i decided i'd go play tennis and guess what... my mum suddenly remembered that i had a sprained wrist. For the whole week she didnt give a damn abt my wrist till i wanted to have fun.

Gives new meaning to the word-bloodsucker doesnt it. MSN doesnt seem to help me either. Everyone seems to be complaining about their new classes or in some cases their schools. I mean how the hell am i supposed to help if you went to NJC or RJC. Not like i can do anything and to all those people complaining about their classes, Anything and i mean ANYTHING is better than a class with nine rv( no disrespect to your school ). 4 han hua 3 cat high and 4 Bukit panjang govt. high school dudes and 4 scholars from china. Its like free chinese lessons everyday. I dont mind the language considering most of my close friends are chinese but i mean could they at least try to converse in english especially when speaking to me.I think sherm was the only one not complaining on msn today.

Sherm was like "you cant abandon me for your rv/nanhua/chispeaking friends ok". I'm like i should be the one saying that. U guys shouldnt abandon me WITH my rv/nanhua/chispeaking friends. Guys honestly please dont. I'll die.. i'm a hedonist remember... i strive on fun and pleasure. If that is taken away i'll honestly die. Argh.. Sherm suggested i go try neopets to cure my boredoom and u noe what?? Since i'm seriously so bored i'll just go do that...Tra la la la...

Debates

Went back to watch Barker debate today. They did fantastic. They won their 3rd straight debate although Bilias screwed up bad. He sholudnt really be on the team. We were ranked second behind plmgs on going into the quaters which was seriously a pity. It was rather unfortunate that CHIJ TP lost to SCGS. I was rooting for IJ but scgs were just too good for them. However IJ saint nicks beat NJC. My junior was very upset seeing his former team win and his current team get knocked out of the competition. So much for going to NJC. MGS topped the A'div ranking and i think they might end up winning it. All the debates and meeting up old friends really make me wish i had joined debates but well i cant do everything i want to. I miss the old days of preping for debates and the trainings and stuff but thats what caused me to divert away from my studies so i guess i should just be happy.

school

School school school.. i miss my old class. my new class is full of china scholars or river valley students who speak in Chinese. They tend to forget i'm not Chinese.. So i guess you get the picture... Hockey training was fun.. Ran 6km(too little really) and went to the gym. I never knew there was some maximum weight rule thing when lifting weights. Apparently the max i can lift is 150 pounds so according to this rule i should train with 80% of 150 pounds which is roughly 120 pounds. I had to lift 120 pounds which is almost my weight for 5 stations over 5 sets. So now my shoulder hurts. I cant fit into my class.. ARGH.. There is really nothing to look foward to in school anymore. Whats worst than being in a class where no one speaks in English. I miss SA5. Well have to go sleep to rest for another day of torment tommorrow. If only i wasnt a hedonist. Then maybe i could try to make the most of it.

perfect

Got my com back but only for abit. Today went perfect in every sense of the word. Mclaren did magnificent in Formula 1. Both drivers on the Podium. Chelsea also won... A smashing good performance from a team missing 4 first team regulars. 3-0 the final score was against Sheffield. Good Stuff. Played my mixed doubles match today. WE WON!!!.. 6-4 6-7(4-7) 7-5. My wrist is gone thats for sure. But i'm happy we won. Tomorrow school starts again. I'll miss 1SA5. Tomorrow a new beginning.. And what a way to start a new beginning with a winning weekend.

A fine farewell to 1SA5 i leave with a phrase from William Makepeace Thackeray the novelist of vanity fair. ( my personal favorite)

The play is done; the curtain drops,
Slow falling to the prompter's bell
A moment yet the actor stops
And looks around to say farewell.
It is an irksome word and task:
And when he's laughed and said his say,
He shows, as he removes the mask,
A face that's anything but gay.”

I leave with a final farewell. We take our bows. We were 1SA5..

WTF

No damn mood to blog. My mum wants my com and i've only been on it for 10 mins. My wrist is sprained from that hellish training and i ask for a pain killer or some sympathy and i get a lecture on the evils of the computer. My mum probably thinks its some tool of the devil so i mean what the F**k right.

"the superiority complex"

Today went for class outing. Woke up at 7.45( really early for me) and went to kallang to go to Bedok so that we could take a bus to ECP. Went to have breakfast and then went to ECP. Everyone cycled but i had to string my racket. I cant play with destroyed strings can I. So then i met Eileen at Paya Lebar then we walked form there to ECP and then wandered around finding the rest. We talked about all sorts of nonsense from politics to socio-economic issues to random stuff. There was bowling alley at ECP but everyone wanted to meet Zi Yun so we went to marina square to play bowling but the place was full so we just ended up eating at burger king. While waiting for the bowling guy to call, the girls were talking about their cookies and God Knows What and Mingle, colin and Yx were talking about WOW in chinese so i decided to leave with elieen and shermaine. I think the rest went to play bowling eventually.

Reading todays newpaper(The Straits Times), Eileen pointed out to me this article on the review page titled "Why the superiority complex?". It is a very interesting article i recommend everyone to read. Its basically an article written by a Malaysian journalist about us annoying Singaporeans and how we verbally attack the nearest Malaysian on how much better Singapore is everytime we cross the BRIDGE. Its also on how we fail to enjoy the basic freedoms they enjoy such as littering, smoking, chewing, laughing, smiling, flicking and eating hawker food that actually tastes good. The article basiclally takes a bash at Singapore and the stuff we pride ourselves on.

After reading the newspaper article and considering it was from a Malaysian newspaper( New Straits Time). The article probably helped the newspaper by showing its readers that it is a stout defender of Malaysia. In Malaysia there seems to be a simple rule in politics when it comes to Singapore. Anyone who attacks the Republic gains credibility as a stout defender of Malaysia. It was the same when Singapore's MM Lee Kuan Yew commented on Malaysia and Indonesia's ethnic Chinese minorities. Singapore was used as a whipping boy by Malaysian politicians to show their 'loyalty to Malaysia' and they naturally demanded an apology from MM Lee without taking into account the numerous occasions they used Singapore as a bashing board with us keeping mum.

The author probably failed to notice that even though we may be denied simple rights such as chewing and spitting it is for the benefit of the majority and he also probably failed to notice that we enjoy equal rights regardless of race or religion which is as much as I can say about Malaysia and their Bumiputeras. Ultimately we would all assumably be lying if we said we can live without Malaysia and they without us. When u think of Malaysia... If we ever find time to think of Malaysia (Yeah we're too busy enjoying our Beautiful, Green and Clean Singapore) . The first thing that comes to mind is, "isnt that the place with the fake stuff" which is as much as i can say about them...

Tennis at last

Adarsh made it.. John Heng made it and Tim Fang made it.. YEAH!!.. all of us back at AC.. really happy adarsh made it.. then now i wont have to hear his nonsense about how we are from different schools and blah blah. Played my tennis match today. My doubles partner christopher and I played against my cuz and his double partner andrew. We were the favourites to win. But things dont always happen they way it should. In the first set we took a commanding 3-1 lead but we were interupted by the rain and when it continued we went 4-1 up and from there didnt win any games. we lost the first set 4-6. The match took a 15 min break as the court was dried. We resumed the second set. We once again took the lead this time a 3-0 lead. Then as things would have it, I slipped on a wet part of the court and buckled my knee. We went on to loose that set 4-6 aswell. The last set was disasterous as every game went to a duece we lost every game and got thrahed 0-6. It was interesting to note that i was completely out of sorts.

Even the audience and that mega hott chillean girl noticed. At least she noticed. I was really short on match fitness. My service lacked pace, my backhand lacked accuracy and my forehand lacked power. The only thing that worked for me were my drop shots. They were awesome. I've never seen them come out so beautifully. Even my stamina seemed to have deserted me. never after only 2hrs of playing have i felt tired but today i really couldnt move around as fast as i am used too. Maybe all that skipping training to go out and all those cokes are getting to my system. But most importantly i realised today that i was disastracted. Distracted by what someone said. I kept on thinking about what she said through out the entire match and it must have been very obvious cause even chris' sister noticed. I think what was said is causing that wierd feeling inside. honestly.. But i'm too happy to care or am I...

Bored

Today was boring. Didnt do anything. I had planned on going for tennis but fell asleep at 2 and I woke up after training started which was about 6 plus so i didnt end up going. watched chelsea versus tottenham. What a match. 3-3 in the end. Suprisingly at the points when chelsea was loosing i wasnt upset or angry. I'm too happy for that. I still feel extremely bored. I cant find a good quality book anywhere. Argh. I feel screwed up inside for some reason... i havent a clue why. I've got the holidays to figure it out. I hope the holidays are nothing like today.

ECSTATIC

I AM SO DAMN HAPPY....I got accepted back into ACJC. Just when i had given up all hope. I really thank GOD. I really do. It came as a complete shock to me. I just had given up hope and had brought cash to buy my uniforms. Then Abraham messages me and says that he got into SA and i was devastated. Right after that message i got a call and thinking it was abraham i thought of rejecting the call but i decided against it and answered the call anyway. It was ACJC. I was really ecstatic. I jumped up in front of the whole assembly and just shouted my head off and ran out.

I went for orientation. I was mega on. We went to settlers for our OG outing. it was fun playing taboo especially with vijesh.. His accent rocks. Honestly. A good pure Indian Accent. then went for campfire and did the mass dance and did more mass dance. Had to run around the field shouting i love AC but i didnt do it properly and sherm wasnt there so i'll have to do it again. Its all in good fun. I'm supposed to have a party but i dont noe when i'll end up having it.

Watched Jaurasic park with my cuz today but i really wanna play tennis. Havent touched my racket in a month. Going to watch Disney on ice later.

Looking back at everything now, i really, honestly have to thank God. Its by his grace that i'm back at ACJC. I look back and i realise how much a week can change a person. I have turned over a new leaf and will work hard and i mean it. There will be no more slacking from me. I really also thank everyone who hoped and prayed for me getting back into AC. THANK YOU GUYS and more importantly THANK YOU GOD. I will work hard and do both ACS(BR) and ACJC proud.