song of the phoenix

sigh i was feeling miserable yesterday cause of the flu and the thought of living all alone in singapore as my parents move to the UAE. Well i was quite disheartening to hear that my cuz would be left with me after all he is a liability. Then there was this stupid but foolish fear that some how i wouldnt make the starting 11 next year. I've like always been good in whatever i've done be it debates or whatever. Even in club tennis we went far in doubles. Its like i dont noe if suddenly i cant be the best anymore. Well i've forgotten it and put it out of my mind. My cuz screwed up bad and i'm guessing thats the end of his stint with me. Today i feel like the song of the Phoenix is playing within me. the song of the Phoenix is that beautiful tone that plays when all hope seems lost.. the tune that gives strength for one more battle. Its like its pushing me on. Giving me assurance that nothing will go wrong. Something has reached into the depths of me to help me to keep on going. I feel unusually happy today or it could just be the brandy mixed with the honey for my cough but i'll go with the song of the Phoenix.