sigh

sigh..
i embarrassed myself and my cca today.. aiyoh.. Went for cross-country after hockey training.. So i was like already damn tired but thats besides the point. I was running behind Ryan and i was going strong as in i wasnt tired.. I was just doing my stuff when my trailing leg catches something sticking out of the ground. I took a hard fall and strained my ankle and from then on i had to limp back eventually finishing last. I was PATHETIC. i felt like shit cause i was not only representing myself but hockey aswell. So yeah i feel like shit. Chelsea is playing later. Hopefully they can give me some solace.. however in the mean time i needa think of a way to tell the girl i like that i've fallen for her.. tiring stuff..

ummm... uh huh.. ahh.. umm.. DAMN>>!!

Well today was like the first official day of school with my new class. I cant say it was a disaster but it was rather boring. My class really tends to deviate to Chinese whenever possible and well they got a telling off from our GP teacher. There arent any of my friends in any of my lecture groups. Not shermaine not eileen not adarsh not johnathan and not even hari or raymond. The only person i regconised the whole day today besides people from my class was a girl whom i think is Shermaine's friend and then again i might have seen wrongly. Well i guess i just have to live with it. Well hanging around my class the whole day today i noticed some of the queer things they do.

1)The chinese scholars carry this electronic dictionary looking thing and the constantly use the dictionary function to get translations from chinese to english but what amazes me is that this thingy has a chinese keyboard(amazing huh).
2) Most of them brought their river valley year books ( guess what.. its in chinese)
3) They all have an overpowering urge to join MRC or Strategic games.
4) Some of them write notes or their to-do lists in chinese( i swear i saw some of my classmates' hand-phones progammed in chinese aswell)
5)They love physics and chinese but hate gp,chem and math
6)They wanted to have their class outing at room 5.11 so that they can play bridge.
7) They had no idea ACSIAN THEATRE was running west side story( their reason: they dont watch english shows???)
8) everyone in my class took higher chinese for the exception of myself and cheryl
9) The only thing they knew about football is that a person called david beckham exists. ( they think he still plays for MANU and they called chelsea.. (chleseh)..)
10) They really struggle speaking to me.

However they are all still a nice a bunch nonetheless but i still prefer my old class. Something else happened today aswell. This girl- Nicole guessed that i was from barker. I asked what drew her to her conclusion. She said i had the look- very tall and very skinny but altheletically built. I was like uh huh..Anyway Most people do guess my school correctly . They all guess that i am from ACS but when i ask them which ACS most tend to get it wrong saying that i'm from Independent but at least they get the ACS part correct. The hard part people have, is guessing which CCA i'm from. Here are some of the guesses i've heard.

1) Track and field ( i cant run fast-only long)
2) cross country ( i want to join)
3) Rugby ( WTF.. do i look like i can play rugby)
4) Tennis ( techinally correct but i dont play for school)
5) swimming
6) basket ball ( cant play that game for nuts)
7) soccer ( only like watching)
8) hockey ( i think only 2 guessed it right)
9) Debates ( only 4 people said this- one cause he has seen me receive award before- one seen me debate and they other 2 cause of the way i speak but unfortunatly i've seen the end of my debating days)

Interesting huh. I never knew i could fit into the portfolio of so many ccas but the most common guesses are always cross country and tennis. Which are sort of true. Argh i really miss my class.. i'm going to die of boredom sooner or later. i need to go out and really have fun as in with the people i really enjoy being with and not some messy outing. Argh. save me. I think i've fallen for her. DAMN>>

Indian expats- how included are they??

YAY.. my mum isn't pissed at me. she is pissed at my sis and my cuz. Well done to them. Today was one of the most random days i've ever had. I decided not to go for the class outing ( i'm not part of SA5 anymore didnt really want to feel like an outsider) but decided to go to lexi's house instead. She was like we havent met up in like 4 months so just come and study la.. I was like okay. When i reached her house. First thing she says to me

lexi: who do u think tastes better.. me or audrey
Me: umm.. i dont noe..
Audrey: I taste better
Lexi: u so do not. ( sticks her arm right in front of my face). I taste better.. just try.
Me: i rather not.
lexi: (grabs my arm and bites it). He tastes better than u.
me: wtf. ( wiping of her saliva)
Audrey: let me try
Me: nonono.. Or i'm leaving..
Audery: okay lets do work. Says softly: I taste the best

We actually did manage to do work after that. I managed to finish chem tutorial 4( now only lagging by 3 chapters). I was quite surprised that we actually didnt talk through out the whole thing. Amazing huh.

Anyways I read this article in The Sunday Times today. Indian expats: How separate are they?
Basically the article is about the rift between local indians and expat indians. The writer wrote that these indians cant integrate into Singapore because singaporean indians cant accept them due to the fact that they tend to live more wealthy. They dine at Rang Mahal live in districts 9,10 and 15. Shop at Mumbai se and what not. They say quote " i feel that the community doesn't actually like to interact or mingle with us in spite of my friendly gestures. There's a bit of warmth lacking"- Dr. Suchitr Kataria.

Now i personally found this hilarious. I'm a third generation Singaporean. My grandparents were born here, my parents were born here and i was born here. Its really very rare to find a third generation Singaporean cause most Singaporeans have grandparents who emigrated here.
But thats beside the point.I buy my clothes from BritishIndia. I dine at Rang Mahal or other restaurants like Vaanch or at Hai Tien Lo every fortnight. I live in district 15 and i know and i see many of these Indian expats. Yet most of my friends are chinese or indians who were born here. Now heres the interesting question- Why is that so?

I'll tell you why. Its not that we Singaporeans dont welcome u guys here. Its that u guys dont want to make yourselves welcomed here. I can tell you of the countless occasions when someone from india has told me i pronounce a word wrongly.They with their indain accents tell us we say stuff wrongly. No doubt our english may be peppered with singlish - but then again its all part of being singaporean. Then there are the times i hear an indian lady tell her friend that Singaporean Ladies dress indecently by wearing shorts out of the house and they'll heave a sigh of disgust. Now!- Its abt 30 Celsius out there and to be honest i think wearing shorts is far more sensible than wearing a sari with track shoes while walking around. Moreover Some Indian expats ought to learn that they cant always have things their own way .They piss off taxi drivers and even the cashiers at the supermarkets. I mean these people are human too. A smile and a friendly chat will do a world of good. Being stuck in your egoistic self-centered world where the caste system still prevails aint going to help anyone.

Now i'm not saying all Indian expats are that way. There exists a small minority of Indian expats who are almost Singaporean that u wouldnt know it until u see their passports. These Indian expats are hard to come by. They are however and rather unfortunately the minority. The first Indians that came to Singapore came as coolies and merchants. These Indians made an effort to integrate into Singapore- they fought for Singapore and they made a home in Singapore along side their Chinese and Malay neighbours. The new expats of today are no different . They are intellectual coolies here to work for the great multi-nationals that set base in Singapore. For those who make an effort to fit in.-We welcome you to our country but for those who think they are tooo good for Singapore. Honestly Please leave .. i mean it. Please do leave. Cause the next time i hear an Indian expat complaining that they could get something or that something is better in India or anywhere else, i'll be happy to direct you right to the airport and right onto the next air-india flight out of our inferior country where you can be intellectual coolies that you guys really are some where else. Now after reading this. Stop whining u guys. Cause if u wanna go caste system on me. I'm a Brahman so i beat u guys there as well. Cheers from a Singaporean.

Tra la la la

Tra la la la. Super bored and super stoned.. Tra la la.. I want to do something but my mum is running a prison camp.. I got her pissed at me today. Well... she kinda likes to screw up everyones weekend. This weekend sucks..no football.. no formula1.. nothing.. They should have a rule against weekends like this. Anyhows i was supposed to meet Eileen at one but i woke up at 12. I was really happy when she said she was tired and decided she wanted to take a nap. So i went to time my run myself and after abt one km i had a cramp. I was really pissed cause i should have warmed up properly. I went home and my mum was like blah blah blah again.. I tend not to listen. The whole day from then on sucked really bad. I mean it was really boring. I watched cartoons and more cartoons and more cartoons till i had a headache. So i decided i'd go play tennis and guess what... my mum suddenly remembered that i had a sprained wrist. For the whole week she didnt give a damn abt my wrist till i wanted to have fun.

Gives new meaning to the word-bloodsucker doesnt it. MSN doesnt seem to help me either. Everyone seems to be complaining about their new classes or in some cases their schools. I mean how the hell am i supposed to help if you went to NJC or RJC. Not like i can do anything and to all those people complaining about their classes, Anything and i mean ANYTHING is better than a class with nine rv( no disrespect to your school ). 4 han hua 3 cat high and 4 Bukit panjang govt. high school dudes and 4 scholars from china. Its like free chinese lessons everyday. I dont mind the language considering most of my close friends are chinese but i mean could they at least try to converse in english especially when speaking to me.I think sherm was the only one not complaining on msn today.

Sherm was like "you cant abandon me for your rv/nanhua/chispeaking friends ok". I'm like i should be the one saying that. U guys shouldnt abandon me WITH my rv/nanhua/chispeaking friends. Guys honestly please dont. I'll die.. i'm a hedonist remember... i strive on fun and pleasure. If that is taken away i'll honestly die. Argh.. Sherm suggested i go try neopets to cure my boredoom and u noe what?? Since i'm seriously so bored i'll just go do that...Tra la la la...

Debates

Went back to watch Barker debate today. They did fantastic. They won their 3rd straight debate although Bilias screwed up bad. He sholudnt really be on the team. We were ranked second behind plmgs on going into the quaters which was seriously a pity. It was rather unfortunate that CHIJ TP lost to SCGS. I was rooting for IJ but scgs were just too good for them. However IJ saint nicks beat NJC. My junior was very upset seeing his former team win and his current team get knocked out of the competition. So much for going to NJC. MGS topped the A'div ranking and i think they might end up winning it. All the debates and meeting up old friends really make me wish i had joined debates but well i cant do everything i want to. I miss the old days of preping for debates and the trainings and stuff but thats what caused me to divert away from my studies so i guess i should just be happy.

school

School school school.. i miss my old class. my new class is full of china scholars or river valley students who speak in Chinese. They tend to forget i'm not Chinese.. So i guess you get the picture... Hockey training was fun.. Ran 6km(too little really) and went to the gym. I never knew there was some maximum weight rule thing when lifting weights. Apparently the max i can lift is 150 pounds so according to this rule i should train with 80% of 150 pounds which is roughly 120 pounds. I had to lift 120 pounds which is almost my weight for 5 stations over 5 sets. So now my shoulder hurts. I cant fit into my class.. ARGH.. There is really nothing to look foward to in school anymore. Whats worst than being in a class where no one speaks in English. I miss SA5. Well have to go sleep to rest for another day of torment tommorrow. If only i wasnt a hedonist. Then maybe i could try to make the most of it.

perfect

Got my com back but only for abit. Today went perfect in every sense of the word. Mclaren did magnificent in Formula 1. Both drivers on the Podium. Chelsea also won... A smashing good performance from a team missing 4 first team regulars. 3-0 the final score was against Sheffield. Good Stuff. Played my mixed doubles match today. WE WON!!!.. 6-4 6-7(4-7) 7-5. My wrist is gone thats for sure. But i'm happy we won. Tomorrow school starts again. I'll miss 1SA5. Tomorrow a new beginning.. And what a way to start a new beginning with a winning weekend.

A fine farewell to 1SA5 i leave with a phrase from William Makepeace Thackeray the novelist of vanity fair. ( my personal favorite)

The play is done; the curtain drops,
Slow falling to the prompter's bell
A moment yet the actor stops
And looks around to say farewell.
It is an irksome word and task:
And when he's laughed and said his say,
He shows, as he removes the mask,
A face that's anything but gay.”

I leave with a final farewell. We take our bows. We were 1SA5..