YAY the promos are over.. havent blogged nor come online in ages. I guess its probably due to several reasons. One i am afraid of my friends and two is was really sick but i'm okay now. promos sucked real bad i wouldnt be suprise if i get retained normally i would bother to make and effort to study but for this examinations none came. i completely didnt do section B of physics and likewise for my math and chem i dont guarantee my answers are correct for the questions i did do. Anyway screw the exams.. EXAMS SUCK. The school in dubai rejected me.. Screwy huh. Well i'm gonna email the registar with my cv and see how it goes and if i cant get the college of my choice there is stilll oxford intl and cambridge intl but really i wanna get out of my school. my spirit is crushed and i've hit lowest i've been in years. Played tennis the other day had a match point but lost the match something some my 'friends' said has really been bugging me. probably one of the reasons to my downcast mood. well i'll not to be so moody as they say we should bear our own burdens.
the monk who sold his ferrari is really something to think about makes one wonder eh... would a monk even own a ferrari or can a monk own a ferrari. its kind of a paradox it gets u thinking but ultimately u get to the question is a ferrari worth it. Doesnt make sense??? think about it. u'll get to that question eventually and only u noe the answer to that question.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Sunday, September 9, 2007
the hols
the hols have ended. here is what i did.
monday-umm nothing. ahh yes soccer
tuesday- soccer again
wednesday-pw meeting( did i mention i hate pw)
thursday-umm cant rmbr.. oh yeah i did math.. see i actually studied haha. but only 4 chpters
friday- open house prep played bridge and soccer to kill 4hrs then met adarsh to watch ratatatatata ( okay i cant spell the name) told adarsh whats on my mind. His response: you should have gone acsi
Saturday: open house but it was really disappointing cause not many ppl came. Played hockey for like 4 hrs then managed to convince shermaine to go dover market to eat. Her whinning is damn funny. honestly. then she made me buy peach bubble tea for mrc girl and then i had to sneak it into the hall to give it to her. she wasnt there though and eventually found her with shermaine. then we walked around the school looking for dont noe what and then i went back to playing hockey for another 2 hrs.
went home and wrote out my feelings and it wasnt me. it was like someone else was inside of me. Made me think that maybe my nonsence is a facade for what i really feel but then ( okay this will sound really made up and unbelieveable but then again neither am i a supernatural believer kinda thing) my bible fell outta my bag and the verse psalms 23:3 caught my eye and it gave me strength. it was like god was giving me a message and suddenly that feeling of defeatness and deflatedness was gone.
Things in dubai arent going as well as my parents would have hoped. my dad doesnt really enjoy his new working environment and i cant say that i didnt predict that. but my dad is bounded by contract and so my mum will still have to go. havent been feeling so well these days having constant headaches and feel constantly tired. went to see a doctor he told me to go see a specialist. the told me what he thinks the problem is but this is something i rather keep inside. Telling ppl would not be good. I just hope it'll cure fast or i hope i dont have to be operated on. The doctor doesnt think it will lead to an operation cause its gotta do with my rhinithis and my mum has had the problem before but i hope it turns out alrite. God gimme strength.
monday-umm nothing. ahh yes soccer
tuesday- soccer again
wednesday-pw meeting( did i mention i hate pw)
thursday-umm cant rmbr.. oh yeah i did math.. see i actually studied haha. but only 4 chpters
friday- open house prep played bridge and soccer to kill 4hrs then met adarsh to watch ratatatatata ( okay i cant spell the name) told adarsh whats on my mind. His response: you should have gone acsi
Saturday: open house but it was really disappointing cause not many ppl came. Played hockey for like 4 hrs then managed to convince shermaine to go dover market to eat. Her whinning is damn funny. honestly. then she made me buy peach bubble tea for mrc girl and then i had to sneak it into the hall to give it to her. she wasnt there though and eventually found her with shermaine. then we walked around the school looking for dont noe what and then i went back to playing hockey for another 2 hrs.
went home and wrote out my feelings and it wasnt me. it was like someone else was inside of me. Made me think that maybe my nonsence is a facade for what i really feel but then ( okay this will sound really made up and unbelieveable but then again neither am i a supernatural believer kinda thing) my bible fell outta my bag and the verse psalms 23:3 caught my eye and it gave me strength. it was like god was giving me a message and suddenly that feeling of defeatness and deflatedness was gone.
Things in dubai arent going as well as my parents would have hoped. my dad doesnt really enjoy his new working environment and i cant say that i didnt predict that. but my dad is bounded by contract and so my mum will still have to go. havent been feeling so well these days having constant headaches and feel constantly tired. went to see a doctor he told me to go see a specialist. the told me what he thinks the problem is but this is something i rather keep inside. Telling ppl would not be good. I just hope it'll cure fast or i hope i dont have to be operated on. The doctor doesnt think it will lead to an operation cause its gotta do with my rhinithis and my mum has had the problem before but i hope it turns out alrite. God gimme strength.
Saturday, September 1, 2007
A tribute
As my dad leaves for dubai tmr. it suddenly becomes so real. the boxes and the suitcases packed, the cars sold and movers coming over. It hit me hard that its like almost the last time i'll ever spend with my dad. the next time i'll see him will be during holidays but for the next 4 yrs we'll be in different countries and after the 4 yrs i'll be too old to have a father son relationship with my dad anymore and instead it'll be more like a relationship btwn 2 adults. Although i have never been close to my dad considering the last time we talked was when i was in primary 6. Despite this i still feel the need to pay a tribute to my dad. so here it goes.
Dad although we never really talked or did things together. You were still there for me. When mum shouted and threw remotes at me for my academic short comings, u would tell her to stop and i knew although u never said it u were silently disappointed. When u saw the results of the Mensa test and the certificate qualifying me for Mensa once again although u never said it,your eyes showed your pride in having me join u as another member of the family in Mensa. You were always concerned about who i was debating and how was doing in the tennis competitions i entered. It was always u who came and watched me at the tennis competitions and even when i got thrashed in the quarter-finals u were proud that i made it that far. When your friends and colleagues tipped me to become the next u or even surpass u. Silently i'm sure u were proud. But the truth is dad, i'll never be you. i've always lived in the shadow of your achievements and what you accomplished and it will always be that way. No matter what, i will never be able to measure up to what you are. I will always remain in your shadow but thanks dad for moulding me so that one day i will carry on the reputation you have established. i wish you all the best in Dubai and most importantly although i think the last time i said it was 7yrs ago. i love you dad.
Dad although we never really talked or did things together. You were still there for me. When mum shouted and threw remotes at me for my academic short comings, u would tell her to stop and i knew although u never said it u were silently disappointed. When u saw the results of the Mensa test and the certificate qualifying me for Mensa once again although u never said it,your eyes showed your pride in having me join u as another member of the family in Mensa. You were always concerned about who i was debating and how was doing in the tennis competitions i entered. It was always u who came and watched me at the tennis competitions and even when i got thrashed in the quarter-finals u were proud that i made it that far. When your friends and colleagues tipped me to become the next u or even surpass u. Silently i'm sure u were proud. But the truth is dad, i'll never be you. i've always lived in the shadow of your achievements and what you accomplished and it will always be that way. No matter what, i will never be able to measure up to what you are. I will always remain in your shadow but thanks dad for moulding me so that one day i will carry on the reputation you have established. i wish you all the best in Dubai and most importantly although i think the last time i said it was 7yrs ago. i love you dad.
Friday, August 24, 2007
rarh!!!
bleh.. my leg is seriously thrashed. went to play soccer today. we split the teams into polys vs jcs. i scored a beauty and i mean a beauty but i got slide tackled so hard that my knee popped. As usual the jackass that i am continued playing. Only after the match did i realise how badly hurt i was. We won 4-3 in the end,my cuz scoring a brace for the polys team. To be honest we were actually quite lucky. Then after the game. we went to alis house. It was quite fun, we just sat around talking bout crap and i realised how much my parents dominate my damn life. its always naveen do this, naveen why are u late, naveen where are you, naveen who u with, naveen dont do this, naveen switch off your computer, naveen y u listening to music. naveen i'm damn pissed with your attitude, naveen if u dont like it here get out of my house. Oh Damn how much i hate my parents they are seriously control freaks. They seriously dont let me do shit. I guess this is probably due to all the damn woman's magazines my mum reads since she stopped working. i mean all those articles on those screwed up american kids and how computers promote crime and all that nonsence.Talk about vulnerable!!. C'mon for an author you should have some intelligence. Oh right wait i inherited the intelligence from my dad, my poor mum only has a basic IQ. Sigh okay i think i've gotten it all out.
this week was okay as weeks go.
Monday- training
Tuesday- met shermaine and emma to 'study' chem
wednesday-training( forgot my brace for my right knee and a result my left knee had to take the full load and i picked a strain)
thursday-skipped school( went out with my parents-fullfilling social obligations for my father)
Friday(today)- having shortness of breath and my knee felt extremely stiff.- did some physio to get it better. shows how dumb i was to go play football right.
i hope the weekend'll be good. i know i'm going to the ritz tmr again for another dinner with my dads well-wishers. i cant stand these dinners. Dressing up in some zara shirt with dress shoes and dress pants talking abt politics isnt the way i want to spend my damned saturday nights. But hey if these clowns can get me a job in the future it gives me an edge right. Just hope my dad doesnt come up during my conversations and basically shows the person i'm talking to how poorly i measure up to him. It sucks being in my dads shadow. Started fantasy league here is my team and shermaines team.
my team-Van der Sar, Richards, Taylor, Carragher, Malouda, Malbranque, Osman, Alonso, Drogba(Captain), Heskey, Martins
shermaines team(helping her manage)-Cech, Richards, Bikey, Scharner, Lampard, Gerrard, Essien, Arteta, Kanu, Benjani, Torres(Captain)
this week was okay as weeks go.
Monday- training
Tuesday- met shermaine and emma to 'study' chem
wednesday-training( forgot my brace for my right knee and a result my left knee had to take the full load and i picked a strain)
thursday-skipped school( went out with my parents-fullfilling social obligations for my father)
Friday(today)- having shortness of breath and my knee felt extremely stiff.- did some physio to get it better. shows how dumb i was to go play football right.
i hope the weekend'll be good. i know i'm going to the ritz tmr again for another dinner with my dads well-wishers. i cant stand these dinners. Dressing up in some zara shirt with dress shoes and dress pants talking abt politics isnt the way i want to spend my damned saturday nights. But hey if these clowns can get me a job in the future it gives me an edge right. Just hope my dad doesnt come up during my conversations and basically shows the person i'm talking to how poorly i measure up to him. It sucks being in my dads shadow. Started fantasy league here is my team and shermaines team.
my team-Van der Sar, Richards, Taylor, Carragher, Malouda, Malbranque, Osman, Alonso, Drogba(Captain), Heskey, Martins
shermaines team(helping her manage)-Cech, Richards, Bikey, Scharner, Lampard, Gerrard, Essien, Arteta, Kanu, Benjani, Torres(Captain)
Saturday, August 18, 2007
funny things, sad things, angry things
this week was honestly not bad. heard some funny stuff went through some bad stuff and did some fun stuff. I also realised this week that i need to translate what i noe into results. i'm sick and tired of making careless mistakes or misjudging what the questions want cause i noe my work. so its really pissy. but this week was also real fun. i guess my class is getting more and more united and it really makes me happy when i see my whole class doing things together although i still feel that i dont belong there. this week has also been strange because i'm becoming more and more intolerant of my friends . i'm starting to question where the loyalties of some of my "friends" lie. Then again maybe its just me. Anyways here are some of the funny things i've heard this week.
at hockey training: Which one goes on first ah, the socks, shoes or the shin pads
which team am i on again ah( the guy was wearing white and the opponents were wearing coloured)
In school: What class do i have now, my reply: umm i'm not in your class, guy: oh shit damn crap how and then he runs
After a test :I will pass if i dont fail
After a bridge game and after the partner has revealed himself and the game is won: Eh who is my partner ah, did we win
and my mum: dont feed this one that one
All the funny things that people say. today was not bad, went for pw meeting with kd cheryl and jie hui ( who isnt in my pw grp) and then instead of doing anything ended playing bridge throughout the whole thing but it was fun. also found out who has been bitching bout me and i learnt who the person who threatened to hit my leg at the weak spot to ensure i dont ever play again is . Well dude i noe who are and my warning to you dont mess arnd with me cause i'll hurt u real bad and i mean real bad. what a jackass. Really i feel like joining hockey was an F-ing disaster.
Also havent heard ppl calling me vishnu in such a long time. i rmbr the times when adarsh bryan and justin would scream it across the mrt or classes and the tennis courts it used to be damn funny. It was so strange when bryan( the singapore one) called me vishnu the other day. i need to do fun and enjoyable stuff. my life is being plagued by just training work training work. lets see what i did this week.
monday:training
Tuesday:BORING LIKE CRAP!!
Wednesday:ponned training to sleep
Thursday:watched chelsea win and manu draw ponned training also
Fri: wasnt feeling well.
Sat: okay today was preety fun
see what i mean my week sucks as in it really sucks. its so boring. i dont noe how long more i can keep up having such boring weeks. FUN FUN FUN- i need fun. i'm a hedonist i cant live without fun and pleasure.
here are 2 quotes that are really food for thought especially for me:
We hate some persons because we do not know them; and we will not know them because we hate them
I too shall lie in the dust when I am dead, but now let me win noble renown.
and too someone whom u shld noe who u r- I'm not a f-ing sub for when u have a problems or need a shoulder. Just piss off.
at hockey training: Which one goes on first ah, the socks, shoes or the shin pads
which team am i on again ah( the guy was wearing white and the opponents were wearing coloured)
In school: What class do i have now, my reply: umm i'm not in your class, guy: oh shit damn crap how and then he runs
After a test :I will pass if i dont fail
After a bridge game and after the partner has revealed himself and the game is won: Eh who is my partner ah, did we win
and my mum: dont feed this one that one
All the funny things that people say. today was not bad, went for pw meeting with kd cheryl and jie hui ( who isnt in my pw grp) and then instead of doing anything ended playing bridge throughout the whole thing but it was fun. also found out who has been bitching bout me and i learnt who the person who threatened to hit my leg at the weak spot to ensure i dont ever play again is . Well dude i noe who are and my warning to you dont mess arnd with me cause i'll hurt u real bad and i mean real bad. what a jackass. Really i feel like joining hockey was an F-ing disaster.
Also havent heard ppl calling me vishnu in such a long time. i rmbr the times when adarsh bryan and justin would scream it across the mrt or classes and the tennis courts it used to be damn funny. It was so strange when bryan( the singapore one) called me vishnu the other day. i need to do fun and enjoyable stuff. my life is being plagued by just training work training work. lets see what i did this week.
monday:training
Tuesday:BORING LIKE CRAP!!
Wednesday:ponned training to sleep
Thursday:watched chelsea win and manu draw ponned training also
Fri: wasnt feeling well.
Sat: okay today was preety fun
see what i mean my week sucks as in it really sucks. its so boring. i dont noe how long more i can keep up having such boring weeks. FUN FUN FUN- i need fun. i'm a hedonist i cant live without fun and pleasure.
here are 2 quotes that are really food for thought especially for me:
We hate some persons because we do not know them; and we will not know them because we hate them
I too shall lie in the dust when I am dead, but now let me win noble renown.
and too someone whom u shld noe who u r- I'm not a f-ing sub for when u have a problems or need a shoulder. Just piss off.
Friday, August 10, 2007
stuff
finally found time to blog. Everything seems to be falling apart for me. I have been neglecting my true piorties and have not been paying attention to whats happening around me. This week kd stepped down from treasurer. I feel like i lost an ally but more importantly a dear friend and just today i had a fight with cheryl. It was harsh and some explitives were exchanged and to be honest it was all my fault. I feel like i'm loosing all my friends one by one. even when i had lunch with adarsh and when we went to watch a movie we werent as close as we used to be. Had the national day thing on wed. Represented tct as house captain. For the stupid pushball game i had to throw my body into the thing and had to push really hard against 3 acsi rugby players. it made my injury worse but at least we won third overall. what was nice was that some girl who looked not bad said she saw me playing and said i was very brave-a small consolation i guess. Hockey is also eating my brains. I have to call addidas and collect money for the jerseys and on top of that i have to collect money for class-t also. then there is planning for trainings and studying. there is so much to do and so little time. i'm falling apart almost literally. i was considering stepping down from tct captain but now i think i'll actually do it. so many things on my mind, anyways here are the photos from pre- u sem and photos of a place that gives me comfort- barker. how i miss the good old days. the days when i was a kid.
they were having rehersal couldnt resist taking a photo of my prefect junior standing like a joke
Saturday, July 28, 2007
my perfect wonder
The week has finally ended. The week was horrible and good in someways. there was good and bad. the bad was really bad and the good was okay. hear are my hi-lights
Monday-trying to recover from the fight my mum and i had- stuffed myself after training
Tuesday- met shermaine and emma after school and studied chem- nearly got 9 demerit points but clifton saved me but my parents found out though.
Wednesday-Poor shermy waited for me to end my never ending training so i left before it finished, felt real bad that she went to get water and stuff for me after she had to wait for quite a while then taught sherm chem she gave me a small cute mgs water bottle. Went home and got scolded by my mum again- she said i'm going dubai with my dad.
Thurs- Extremely upset- went to talk to clifton. Sherms friend gave me a weird look still cant forget.
fri- went to museum. saw this really cool picture. it was 3 photos of 3 generations of the same family's children at that era sitting at the same spot in the house in the 1930s, 1970s and 2004. it was so amazing that all the kids look so incredibly like their parents when they were the same age. got kicked out of ndp too.
Today- met lex at vjc - wore the acjc collegiate shirt and got a few weird stares. came home and had a another fight with my mum but she gave me a second chance i got till promos to prove myself.
i've been given several chances over the course of my life, most of which i've thrown away. i'm always making it through by the skin of my teeth but i think this is probably the last chance i'd probably ever receive. I just pray to god that my mum remains true to her word and if she is true i thank god for this one more chance and this time i promise although my promises may mean nothing by now that i'll go for it. I'll give it my all cause i want my dreams to come true and it sure as hell doesnt involve going to some dumbass pricky private school in dubai. for all the ppl who have been there for me the past week, giving me encouragement and pushing me on. i thank you guys so much. For now all i can do is trudge on. My pefect wonder.. sigh.. my perfect wonder i never needed you or wanted you so bad.
Monday-trying to recover from the fight my mum and i had- stuffed myself after training
Tuesday- met shermaine and emma after school and studied chem- nearly got 9 demerit points but clifton saved me but my parents found out though.
Wednesday-Poor shermy waited for me to end my never ending training so i left before it finished, felt real bad that she went to get water and stuff for me after she had to wait for quite a while then taught sherm chem she gave me a small cute mgs water bottle. Went home and got scolded by my mum again- she said i'm going dubai with my dad.
Thurs- Extremely upset- went to talk to clifton. Sherms friend gave me a weird look still cant forget.
fri- went to museum. saw this really cool picture. it was 3 photos of 3 generations of the same family's children at that era sitting at the same spot in the house in the 1930s, 1970s and 2004. it was so amazing that all the kids look so incredibly like their parents when they were the same age. got kicked out of ndp too.
Today- met lex at vjc - wore the acjc collegiate shirt and got a few weird stares. came home and had a another fight with my mum but she gave me a second chance i got till promos to prove myself.
i've been given several chances over the course of my life, most of which i've thrown away. i'm always making it through by the skin of my teeth but i think this is probably the last chance i'd probably ever receive. I just pray to god that my mum remains true to her word and if she is true i thank god for this one more chance and this time i promise although my promises may mean nothing by now that i'll go for it. I'll give it my all cause i want my dreams to come true and it sure as hell doesnt involve going to some dumbass pricky private school in dubai. for all the ppl who have been there for me the past week, giving me encouragement and pushing me on. i thank you guys so much. For now all i can do is trudge on. My pefect wonder.. sigh.. my perfect wonder i never needed you or wanted you so bad.
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